Long time no see! Or rather long time no talk? No post? Either way you look at it, it's been awhile. A whole 502 days according to Google. But really it feels good to be blogging again! I am excited because so much has changed in my life since my last post from July, 2017 and I can't wait to share it with you. I follow the Emily Program on Facebook and recently saw a post they shared called "How to Write a Never Go Back Letter." It really caught my eye and got me thinking...should I write one? Needless to say I clicked on the link, read their suggestions, and decided yes, yes I should write one. So here it is. Dear me, I am writing this because I know you are going to struggle in recovery. I know you are going to have days where you miss your eating disorder and doubt yourself. But I want you to remember that recovery is worth it. Recovery allows me to be the person God intended me to be. It allows me to see the beauty in not only myself but in all other people and living things. It allows me to taste the foods that bring my family and friends together. It tells me that I am strong both mentally and physically. Recovery makes my life healthier. It makes me more alive. It lets me be a better friend, partner, sister, daughter, and pharmacist. It will be there for me on the good days and the bad days. It will allow me to communicate honestly with those I love. It stops me from keeping secrets. It helps me to go out to eat with friends. It helps me to live a life worth living. It reminds me that it’s okay to enjoy food. It reassures me that it’s okay to go to the gym. It tells me my body is exactly what it should be. It tells me that I am good enough. That I am worthy. It lets me live. And, because of recovery, one day I will be able to kiss my children, travel the world, and be a voice for others. Love, Me. In some ways I want this letter to close an era in my life. I do not want to go back to those awful months filled with sadness and anger. Will I always have an eating disorder? Yes. Will it always have control over my life? No. Will I continue to talk about my experiences? Yes. Will I still have days that I still struggle with eating, depression, and anxiety? Yes. But that's ok. I have learned how to ask for help. I know more about myself and my triggers. I have skills to use.
The future is bright my friends. Let's enjoy it together ❤️
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Joann
12/10/2018 07:37:32 pm
It was meant to be that I read your post tonight. This is a particularly difficult time of the year to remain abstinent in my food and sugar addiction. Recovery is one day at a time. Sometimes I start over multiple times a day. But that’s ok because it’s my recovery to do in the best way I know how. Thanks for sharing and stay well.❤️
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Meg
12/10/2018 09:58:00 pm
Hello Tara:) You go girl! Thank you for sharing your 'dear me' story, and for pouring out your heart filled with faith, hope and love. I'm excited for your "new era"! In deep, quiet confidence I join you in knowing for certain that GOD has a unique plan and purpose for you, and all your days ahead. I pray you are greatly encouraged with each brave step of the way. You are not alone.
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