It's crazy to think how much of my life I've been in an educational institution. Kindergarten to present, I've been through seventeen grades! Only two more to go...I hope anyways. Throughout those 17 years, I have always looked forward to school. School for me was never boring. It was fun and entertaining. A mix of sports, friends, teachers, books, math, and challenges. Something about buying school supplies, having a locker, and seeing faces I hadn't seen all summer. This year was different though. After having such a great summer, it was difficult to go back to school last week. For the first time I felt...OLD. I know, I know your probably thinking, "Tara you're like 20 something. You're not old." But walking through the hallways again was a reality check. The freshman undergrads were on campus and they looked like babies all wide eyed with their lanyards swinging from their neck. I was thinking to myself, "Did I look that young four years ago?!" Additionally, the majority of the people I went to high school with are now graduated and getting big girl and big boy jobs. Seeing them move on to the next chapter in their life while I am stuck in this concrete hell hole makes me feel like I don't have my shit together. But then again, I chose this path. Yes it is hard, yes it takes an extra four years, but it will all pay off. That's what I keep telling myself...it will all pay off. Needless to say by the second day I was banging my head against the wall. Going into the second year of graduate school, there is no "syllabus day." Your mind is flooded with Pharmacology, Pharmacokinetics, Cell Metabolism, reflections, problem sets, quizzes, due dates, exams right from the beginning. It's enough to drive anyone crazy. You try and tame the beast by working your butt off thinking you're in control. But pretty soon the classes get harder and you can't control the beast. Instead it starts controlling you. Think of it like trying to keep afloat in a pool of honey. The harder you try, the bigger the mess you make but if you stop trying or get tired and give up you will sink. So my motto this school year is to float just enough to keep my head out of the honey. After the second day I decided there is no use in pouting. Instead I am going to look at the positives and enjoy what I can! My last weekend of freedom, Justin and I went down to canal to enjoy the sun! We stopped for some kettle corn too... Then some girlfriends and I went to go get our nails done after class one day! I had never gotten a manicure before so it was super fun💅🏼 I picked a light pick color and they turned out really good. It's something I definitely would do again! On Friday, we got done with class at noon and I didn't have the mental capacity to go home and study more so instead I went to TJMaxx! I have been looking for a new piece for our apartment and found this bowl, candel, and dried flowers. Everything was super cheap! Lastly I got new glasses! And speaking of old...I got bifocals. The optometrist explained that they would benefit me the most because I have trouble with my near vision. Previously with my old glasses I would have to look over the top to look at the board in school or into the distance at work. It was so annoying that I just stopped wearing my glasses. Now I can't believe the difference and I love wearing my glasses! I can see everything and I don't have to look over the top like a grandma 👵🏼
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Trudy
8/31/2016 10:46:41 pm
Tara, You are awesome!!! Your nails are beautiful and you will be so glad you hung in there and are doing grad school. I love your blog and hearing all about you!!!
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